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[Monday
October 16th, 2006 at 8:19pm] |
hello children
i've been so busy lately with work i haven't had any time to do... anything really. all my free time's been filled up with homework and my fun time is pretty much non existant. I'm off tomorrow and wednesday so I've got some relaxation time coming up, so that's good. I'm loving the money from work though. It's so good having money that's mine and not having to ask my parents for cash. I opened my own bank account so now I have a place to stash it that isn't my sock drawer.
Lately I've been kind of depressed. I just get so angry at myself for getting jealous of stupid shit. I'm jealous of all the people who have happy relationships when I can't even find an unhappy one. It's just so aggravating and annoying actually. Like, I try, but I always fail. My record is like, 192303918 to 0. I'm so sick of it but there's nothing I can do.
I need to move away and start over. People are just so annoying. canada here I come...
the work bell rings again...oh joy. this really sucks that I barely even have time to update my own journal. hmph.
i have a precalc project due on wednesday that i planned on doing today during my break but of course i forgot my folder in school. i suck so much.
ok I need to go. bye.
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[Monday
September 25th, 2006 at 8:37pm] |
uhhhhh so today was boring school was whatever all i remember was brie telling me something and i was like uh ok whatever. and then she wanted me to escort her to her bus like the way we used to walk to english it was funny.
yeah i went to the doctor for a physical which is always really awkward...
and then i ate dinner and it was yummy.
i did homework, watched random youtube videos, and i ate some pineapple. now im going to play some video games until that new show heros comes on at 9 or something. it looks really cool from the commercials.
i got a test tomorrow for history i hope i dont fail. um... ok thats it bye lozlozlolrer
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[Tuesday
September 5th, 2006 at 1:07pm] |
the past couple of days have been really hard.
I haven't been in a good mood at all really. It's just such an unhappy time.
The wake was the past two days. I went and it's just such a hard thing. I was shaking when I prayed at his coffin. It was terrible. Today was the burial, we couldn't go because my mom had work. I don't know if I would've wanted to go anyway. Maybe I would've. I would've wanted to go and see my great grandmother too. Oh well. I guess I'll go another time.
I just can't take people anymore. I'm so fed up with certain friends it's getting boring. I'm always there for any of my friends whenever they have problems or down days, but when it comes time for me, I get a phone call with questions about homework. I really don't understand some people.
I don't know what else to write. I don't want to talk about the funeral anymore. I want to get through it already. I want the bad moods and haunting images to leave. But they just won't.
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[Friday
September 1st, 2006 at 1:48pm] |
My cousin Danamarie's sweet 16 was supposed to be the best night of her life.
Yesterday was her actual birthday. August 31st, 2006. She is sixteen now.
My cousin Danamarie is one of my favorite cousins. We grew up together our whole lives. Our mothers were pregnant together. She is the closest to me in age of all my many cousins. We always have so much fun together, no matter what we do. We always laugh at anything. We could play monopoly forever. We love to eat and we love eating anything, especially when we're together.
She looked so beautiful last night. She was the happiest, I could tell, she's ever been. This was her night and her's only. She's been waiting and planning for her Sweet 16 for as long as I can remember. She used to play "Sweet 16" all the time, having pretend candle ceremonies with all of us. She would watch our other cousin's sweet 16s on video all the time, waiting patiently for her turn.
The party was at the nicest place I could ever think of. This place was the highest class of anything a girl could dream of for their birthday party. The hall was humongous, hundreds of family and friends were in attendance. It was decorated beautifully, balloons everywhere, candy on every table, giant hearts with her name set in the middle, and she sat in her queen's chair upon her dais table enjoying every single second of the party she'd been waiting forever for.
I saw her dancing her heart out with all of her friends and family. She was having the time of her life.
They were bringing out the main course when it happened. I had just got my new york shell steak set right in front of me when I heard a defeaning crash of some sort. It was the sound of a thousand china plates crashing onto a marble floor. There are screams. I look to my left and I see a crowd of people huddled over someone on the floor. Immediately everyone jumps up in shock and terror. No one knows what happened except the few people huddled over the person. Chaos is breaking out. Everyone is ordered out of the room immediately, and everyone leaves. Women are heard crying, men are yelling, cursing. I walk with my grandma and close friend out of the room and into the lobby. We sit and wait.
The man that fell was Danamarie's Uncle. Her mother's sister's husband. Our Uncle Carl. We were all so close as a family, he was like my uncle too.
Uncle Carl had a massive heart attack last night. He passed in Russo's on the Bay on August 31st, 2006. He was 45 years old.
My cousin Danamarie's actual birthday. Her sweet 16.
We all now have to live with this hole in our heart where Uncle Carl was. Some more than others, naturally. But Danamarie will live with this for the rest of her life, and she will be reminded of this tragedy every year on the day of her birth. My poor cousin.
I don't even know what to think. I'm still in shock. I can't fathom the pain his sons are in. His wife. Aunt fran, the funniest woman I know. My little cousins, they're so young. My cousin Danamarie, who had been waiting for that night for as long as I can remember, to have it end in such a tragic way.
Rest in peace Uncle Carl. We all love you.
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| Zelda Music Friday |
[Friday
August 18th, 2006 at 5:31pm] |
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The link to end all link wars:
Zelda music is the best thing in this world.
http://www.joystiq.com/2006/08/18/happy-zelda-music-day-again/
Watch the first video, and then the third one. Amazing.
Camp hyrule ends today. Saddening, I know. It was a lot of fun, I came very close to winning the Zelda trivia, but someone else was faster than me. I'll win next year no doubt.
I can't wait any longer for Twilight Princess. I need it now.
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| update complete ... you must construct additional pylons |
[Tuesday
August 8th, 2006 at 11:50pm] |
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Ok so saturday i went to kurts for his barbecue party thing he had. it was fun as usual and it was a really nice day.
Sunday I went to amanda's sweet 16 with kate. it was really nice, it was at a place on the water in point pleasant. the food was ehh but there was a chocolate fountain that me and kate obsessed over.
Monday was really crappy, mom was lunatic-y and we had therapy and just a crappy day.
Today I went driving for the first time evar!!1 My instructor is a really cool younger guy so It's not like I'm bored for the whole time. It was really cool actually driving. I'll have my permit by saturday and my dad said I can drive to my aunts house :D Amanda came over for a little bit because she was fighting with her boyfriend, and we played random video games.
I've been playing pokemon fireRed with my brother. It's good.
I miss starcraft and want to play it again but I'm too lazy to install it again and no one will play with me. pout pout
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| cosmic terroristic monkeys |
[Thursday
August 3rd, 2006 at 1:57pm] |
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Ahoy
Let me just say that it's motha fuckin hot out bitch !!!
Now that that's out of the way,
Yesterday was a really busy day. I went to target and re-applied. Then I picked up some school supplies *gag* i know its so soon, but it was smart to get it done now instead of in two weeks when theres nothing left. I got four of those cool five star flex notebook-binder hybrid things. They are so awesome, they're small and efficient and hold a lot paper, have a built in folder to hold things in. and its so much smaller and lighter than a bunch of big binders that i usually get. So yes I'm happy about that. I also found Drill Dozer for GBA for only 8 dollars!!! I was in shock. This game is so fantastic, it got rave reviews and like no one bought it. So yeah, if you want a good gameboy game go buy drill dozer at target, it was made my the people who make pokemon. So get it.
After target we went to ebgames because I wanted to see if they had any DS lite styluses (which they didnt) or any screen protectors (which they didnt) or pokemon fire red (Which they didn't) or if they took preorders on Wii yet (Which they didnt). So it was a useless store. I asked the guy if they were hiring and he said not really but he gave me an application anyway. Hmph.
So after that we went to michaels beacuse my brother needed to get a bandana for pirate day at camp. Rachel from italian club works there, and she checked us out and then my dad goes "are you hiring?" and she was like Well yeah actually we really need people now, so i was like omgz sweet! And I applied there, and she said she'll put in a good word for me. So I might have a job at Michael's! I'm excited as hell for it, since it's a really quiet place and air conditioning, it's inside and I get to see all the cool halloween stuff and christmas junk and stuff like that. And my mom will be happy with the discount because she does a lot of crafty things with floral arrangements and stuff. So yeah, I really hope I get that job.
I start my 6 hours of driving this tuesday at 10:30. It's kind of early for me, but I don't mind. I just want to get it over with and get my permit already. I'm really excited to start driving. My instructors name is.. "Vincent". I really hope he's not an old crabby man. That would really suck. Because I know I'm going to be nervous as hell when I start. I don't need someone yelling at me.
Later today I'm going to kohls to get an outfit for amanda's sweet 16 this sunday. me and kate are going. I don't know how that's going to turn out, but hopefully the food is good.
Saturday kurt is having a barbecue type thing so I'm going to that. That should be a lot of fun.
Alright well I'm going to go shower and get dressed now, and then play some video games.
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[Thursday
July 27th, 2006 at 7:23pm] |
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Tuesday I went to my grandparents house in long island. We ate dinner and then I asked my dad to drive us over to where I used to live so we could check out how things changed in the past 5 years. We went to the house, and everything just seems so much smaller than I remember it being. They also built a whole shit load of stores all over the place. It's crazy. I don't like it.
Wednesday we went to my cousin's house in brooklyn. We had my favorite pizza for dinner. Me and danamarie played monopoly and I basically won. We had cake and we went in the pool. It was fun.
Today was really lazy and I helped my grandpa in hte basement all day. And I ate food.
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